When it’s all there at your feet, but you don’t want to touch it.

 

You know that feeling right? When you’ve studied and passed the classes; done all the research; diligently done the self work; stayed consistent and disciplined. You’ve dreamed of this moment and mapped out the speech, the outfit you’ll wear. You’ve cut out fotos of what you want to look like when you arrived at this point. You’ve written in your Bullet journal or ole school journal and imagined this day, yet it’s here and… you suddenly get cold feet.

Is this really for me? Is this really mine? Your loved ones look at you sideways. They are confused about why you are so surprised at this outcome. You DID the necessary work to make this happen. You prayed, cried, isolated, stepped out of your comfort zone; everything that was suggested… you did. You consulted those who you deemed to be experts in what you were working to achieve and followed all their advice. Yet you are now scared to death to step into the next phase of your inevitable success.

Why is that?

Do you deserve it? You tell yourself that you do so why are you now feeling this overwhelming sense of being frozen? Not necessarily thinking negative or for those 90’s babies that remember the show “Married with Children.” The character of Al Bundy was always apprehensive about celebrating anything good because he believed there was always something just as awful to follow. Do you feel this way? Waiting on the other shoe to drop? Someone to jump out and tell you that you’ve been punked? LOL

Nope, it’s all you baby. OWN it. Not like the Oprah network but you get me.

It’s a scary thing to do the work and then see the results of your efforts take shape. It can be unbelievable. Is this impostor syndrome? Perhaps.

So the question is…

Do you jump and roll in it? Do you tip toe into it, testing to see if it’s real? Or do you begin to sabotage it? Missing opportunities because you are suddenly unsure about yourself.

If you ever have this feeling and I’m sure you have because you are an awesome human spirit. Stop if you need to do so. Take a look in the mirror and have a REAL self talk. Find out what the apprehension is and deal with it. If you don’t it may again creep up on you and wreck havoc on your new reality when you least expect it.

Some people don’t show this experience. By that I mean, they seem confident at moving into the next step without blinking.  The rest of us may confide in a loved one or close friend …Oh shit, I can’t believe this is really happening for me?  Like I kinda knew but I had NO idea for sure and well…damn. 

So take that deep inhale and exhale then step up to receive your honors, awards, accolades and whatever. You worked hard for this.  CELEBRATE and then off to tackle the next goal.