Apologies for the late post. Not a good sign I know.

Life happens. How often do we hear that when our plans don’t go the way that WE foresaw them going?  We are provided the steps to complete a process and we follow it diligently. We even go above and over what the list says to ensure our success. Okay maybe that’s just me and my overachieving ass 

Anyway, we follow all the steps and keep hitting a block.

NO; Sorry but we don’t have any openings; You should’ve called about a month ago; We need you to do XYZ before we can consider your request; or just flat out, nothing.  No response, no answer. NOTHING.

Get me?

Sometimes, no matter what you do even when you are doing all the right and correct things according to instructions, advice, leads etc. You’ll get…nothing. Well you get something. You get responses that aren’t what you wanted or needed.

This happened to me. I followed the steps. Applied and followed through on leads. I called, emailed and visited. Each time I was met with either nothing. (the jobs I applied following advice and leads and never getting an interview or anything);or I was met with “Can you do this on a volunteer basis?”

UMM I have bills to pay! HELLO!!! NO I can’t do that for free.  The final straw was following up on a lead only to arrive and find out that it happened in January and won’t happen again until September!  September? What in the entire FUCK?  SERIOUSLY?  that’s all I had to say. I cried all the way home. I wanted to scream.  NO what?

I arrived home and before I could turn off the car a dove plopped her behind on my hood.  She just sat there.  Staring at the sky I asked…”soooo is this my answer? a mangey ole dove?”  She stood up took a few steps and plopped down AGAIN.  Then she attempted to fly and land on a beam in the garage.  NOPE.  Back to the hood.  It was at that point I realized she was in fact a baby.

She attempted flight again. Headed for the open window in the back of the garage. NOPE.

She sat on the ground.

Really GOD?  REALLY?  this is my answer?  So i’m not ready or something?  Just sit down?

sigh.

So we sat…in the garage.  I eventually walked into my apartment and laughed.

Sometimes, DOING is not it. Sometimes, we THINK we are ready and perhaps we just need to sit down.  I need to pay bills and begin to live life like a grownup! I want to do things and go places.  NOPE. sit down.

That’s the hard part. When you think you are ready and Life says…NOT YET.

She seemed content…for now.

So I will attempt to do the same.

How do you handle not being ready for what you thought you were ready for?